IT'S OFFICIAL......I AM INSANE.....

I think that I have officially lost the plot....
As if you cannot gauge my current mood from my last post ~
I somehow agreed to Lauren having a friend to sleepover......
Yes ~ I said'SLEEPOVER'
Her friend arrived at 8am this morning ~ before her
Mother went to work ~
Picture the scene.........

Double the trouble ~
Double the make up ~
Double the noise ~
Double the mess ~
Double the 3 million usual changes of clothes ~
Double the stress ~
and to top it all ~ Lauren just told me that they are going
to have a midnight feast ~
I DON'T THINK SOOOOOO GIRLIES...........

Just off to search for some valium and earplugs (AGAIN!!).......
This promises to be a LONNNNGGGGGG night and I think I may need them........

Hopefully see you all again tomorrow ~ if I survive this night (tee hee!!!).......XX

On these dark days.......

I think that I have done it for most of my life ~ plastered a smile on my face ~ always laughing and happy ~ to the outside world at least. Most of the time ~ that is me ~ Happy!
BUT ~ I am only human and I feel the stress and strain of life ~ of the day to day ~ of the past, the present and what the future may (or may not)hold.

There was a time once, when I was younger ~ when my dreams were full of handsome princes ~ whisking me away on white horses (you get the picture!??)

I sometimes wish for those innocent days of childhood back again .......I sit and watch my sweet daughter ~ totally untouched by the world ~ playing her little games ~ engrossed in her make believe ~ no cares, no worries ~ just as I want it to be ~ it scares the hell out of me that she is yet to grow up ~ yet to be set free in this wonderful ~ yet scarey as heck world!

My life is like this sometimes ~ I wander along quite happily ~ living the same old 'same old' ~ day in day out of the SAME!! AND ~ please don't get me wrong ~ I am fully aware that I am lucky ~ I have my children ~ we are comfortable, safe and most of the time life is good ~ the same......but good.

Then there are times ~ when I hit a bump in the road ~ like now.
I have no idea where I am going,
No idea what I am going to do ~ with my life,
No idea what tomorrow will bring ~ and so many dreams, hopes and living still
left to do.

I have given up on princes and white horses ~ given up on the fairy tales that my Mother read me every night when I was younger ~ they are obviously not for me ~ not for this life anyway.....
These dark days don't come along all that often ~ but when they do ~ the seem to totally swallow me up ~ I feel like I am slowly being dragged into a huge black hole ~ I don't know why they happen ~ but they do ~ I also know that they pass ~ the light flicks back on and life is bright and breezy again!

I know that this is just a glitch ~ a small jolt in life ~.......but as always ~ I get up in the morning and plaster on that smile..............

So, on I go, on we all go ~ into the unknown.........I may not know where I am going ~ or what is ahead of me ~ but I do know that life is a journey ~ and sometimes it is like standing at the edge of a cliff........and all you can do is close your eyes.....and jump ~ and pray for a soft landing! XX

For Ava XX

Four years ago today, my Blog friend Karla gave birth to her first child, a daughter, called Ava.


Ava grew her angel wings and flew to heaven that same day...





Today, we released 4 purple ballons in memory of sweet Ava.

Happy 4th Birthday sweet Ava ~ You are in our thought today ~ XXX

You can find Karlas blog HERE if you would like to visit her today and send her your love xx

HAPPY EASTER..........

.........FROM ME AND MINE.......TO YOU AND YOURS XXXXXX

Brendas Photo Challenge!

It's photo challenge time again ~ and I am actually quite organised this time around ~ I have a new camera ~ it is not having a mid life crisis and all is good!
The hostess this time around is the lovely Donna and the theme is 'Your favourite colour'.

I haven't actually chosen 1 colour ~ and as it is grey and wet outside (typical for a Bank Holiday weekend here in the UK) ~ I have looked inside for my colour inspiration!

The first picture is of the lavendar plants that I bought for my kitchen window ~ I love the lavendar colour! (sorry this one is a bit out of focus ~ still getting used to the camera!)


Next, Laurens summer school dresses ~ I love the checked blue and white ~ she looks so sweet in these school dresses!

My new flowers for the livingroom ~ I am re decorating at the moment and these are the colours that I am going with ~ I love them!

A bit of a closer look!

Well, there you go ~ my offerings for another challenge!

Hope that you are all having a good weekend ~ which is hopefully a bit brighter and drier than ours here!!

See you all next time! XX