No longer here ......but forever in my heart

This photo was taken of my Dad a few short months before he died. He worked on tanks when he was in the Army and while he was in remission from Cancer ~ he helped to restore this tank ~ which he affectionately called 'Esmerelda'. Unfortunately ~ the cancer returned and took my fathers life when he was only 45 years old. There is not a day goes by when he is not thought about, talked about and missed by us all. There will forever be a DAD sized hole in my life ~ which can never be filled and an ache in my heart that will never leave.

Happy Birthday Dad ~ I miss you more than words could ever say ~

Love you forever and a day ~ your Tab XXXXXXX

Forever 19.........

This time of year is always tinged with a feeling of sadness ~ a memory of time gone by ~ an event in my life that changed me forever ~ a memory that no matter the years that have passed ~ will never ever fade away......

My first real love ~ I was 17, he was 19 ~ a young british soldier ~ one barmy hot summer of fun ~ before he was posted to Northern Ireland..........2 months in ~ he was killed ~ shot while on foot patrol ~ my young 17 year old life came to a halt ~ the carefree fun 17 year old I once was ~ was no more ~ death knocked on the door of my life and changed it forever.

I still think of him often ~ still have his photo ~ still to this day cannot help but wonder what would have been ~ could have been ~ had he lived ~ had our lives taken another path.

I look at his photo ~ and while my life has moved on ~ I am now 38, older ~ wiser? with children and a 'grown up' life ~ he is still that young british soldier ~ smiling from that photo ~ happy carefree and forever 19...............