No words needed!!

How is your day going?? XXX

Sunshine and smiles

Hello there ~ Thank you all for your kind words after my small fainting experience!
Just to let you know ~ I did not hurt myself ~ I managed to do my favourite trick and slide down the wall ~ so no damage done ha ha !!
I am fine now ~ and am still determined to give it another go ~ sometime!

Well, the last few days have been gloriously sunny ~ warm and wonderful ~ it has lightened my mood and I feel back to my normal self again ~ the dark clouds seem to have moved on ~ Thankfully!!

The warmer weather has also meant a change of school uniform for my sweet girl ~ so here especially for my good friend Dani ~ are a few pictures of lauren in her new summer school dresses!

They were taken after she got back from school ~ so that is why she looks a bit tired and hot and bothered!

We also have 2 new members of the family ~ as one of our goldfish died and the remaining fish ~ Bubble (below).........

........was a bit lonely ~ so we made a visit to the pet shop at the weekend and got him some new friends.....

This is Bob ~ which is Daniels new fish (sorry about the blurry picture ~ the fish wouldn't keep still ha ha !!).

AND ~ this is Edward......yes ~ Lauren named her fish after my favourite vampire ha ha !!

She has caught her Mummies addiction to Twilight ~ her fish had to be black and she had no doubts about its name!!!

They seem to be doing ok and there have been no issues between them yet ~ so all is good in our fish tank again!!

Since my last weight loss update a few weeks ago ~ I have lost another 3 pounds!

I have now lost 6 stone and 2 pounds (86 pounds) ~ and as my goal was to lose 6 stone ~ I have reached where I initially wanted to be! I am still undecided whether to carry on and lose another 7 pounds or so ~ aswell as toning up!!! I think that I have realised now that this is not just a DIET ~ it is a life style change ~ it is forever and if I just go back to my old eating habits and the way I was before ~ I will have put all the weight back on in no time!!

I cannot deny that I feel wonderful ~ it is nice to be wearing clothes that are 6 dress sizes smaller ~ nice to actually buy clothes that I want to wear ~ not just buying them because they are the only ones that fit and then there are the health benefits ~ which are endless ~ all in all ~ I could not be further away from how I felt this time last year when I started this weight loss journey!!

I will hopefully get over to visit all my bloggy friends soon ~ the last few days have been hectic and I haven't had the time to visit you all.

Hope you are all doing ok! XXX

A Tale of giving blood....

I went ~
I saw ~
I fainted ha ha !!

Out cold on the floor ~ how embarassing!!

Never mind ~ the thought was there.......and I really feel that it is
something that I want to help with.

They are back in a few months ~
so I had best start sorting this fear out ~
and maybe (just maybe) next time ~
I WILL DO IT!!!

THE END! XXX

This is so not a good idea......

......BUT ~ there is a blood drive here at the moment!
I know first hand that blood is always in short supply ~ always needed ~
And some of my friends are going along on Monday and have asked me to go along too!

This in principle is ok ~ only there is one small problem ~ I am terrified and I mean
T~E~R~R~I~F~I~E~D of needles!
Do not ask me why ~ it is a fear that is totally and utterly irrational ~ I have always been the same ~
I am ok having an injection or giving blood ~ as long as at no point during the whole thing do I
see the needle ~ if I do ~ that is it ~ I go hot and clammy and then faint (yes ~ every time I pass out ha ha !!).
I was the same when I was in the Police ~ blood and all that jazz and I am fine ~ but god forbid that a needle should be involved and off I would go......

SO ~ I am slightly worried about what to do ~ on one hand I really want to give blood ~
there is a need and I want to help ~
BUT ~ on the other hand I do not want the embarrassment of passing out ~
and I doubt that there is a possibility that I will not see a needle at some stage ~
surely they cannot hide all of them from me Tee Hee!!!!

I have even considered getting some kind of therapy (ha ha ~ yes I told you I am insane!) ~ a friend of mine used hypnosis to give up smoking and I wondered whether It would cure me of this totally awful gut wrenching fear that I have ~ of something soooooo silly!
It is actually so bad that I cannot watch any hospital based TV programmes ~ for fear that a rogue needle will make an appearance!

So ~ tell me, what are you scared of? What totally irrational things freak you out ~
share your pain ~ and tell me I am normal (or maybe not ~)

Still undecided as to whether I will cope with any blood giving on Monday but I will let you know! XXX

Why do they call it a sleepover??

...........When the little devils hardly sleep and then get up at 5am ha ha !!!!

Well, I survived Laurens first official sleepover ~ it was actually very nice. They were no trouble ~ just little girls, doing little girl things!

They both got up a few times in the night and then decided that they would get up WAYYYYY too early ~ but I managed to convince them that 5am was a little too early for their day to start!
I managed to drift back off for half an hour ~ but come 5.30am ~ I just gave up and got up anyway!

As a result of this ~ there were two very tired little girls today ~ one very tired and slightly grumpy Mummy ~ luckily Dan was his usual happy go lucky self ~ he slept on the pull out bed in my room ~ so was undisturbed by the girls and their antics!

But ~ I know that my girl had a fun time ~ and in the end, that is what matters!

I am sat here now ~ exhausted ~ but with the knowledge that tomorrow I can lie in .......as long as I want to YIPPPPPPPEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
We have to go to the pet shop ~ as our gold fish went to fishy heaven this morning and the black moor fish that we have left (Bubble!!) ~ is swimming around looking very lost and lonely without his little friend ~ so we are off to get him a little fishy friend.....or two!!
Lauren was actually very upset (even though it was Dans fish ~ not hers...) ~ I think a bit of it was just over tiredness and drama tee hee!!

I wanted to thank all of you who left such kind and sweet comments on my post about 'The dark days' ~ it is so nice to know that you are all there for me ~ and your thoughts and words really do mean alot to me. My friends know me so well ~ they have all known me for such a long time and they tend to just nod and agree with me when I am in a funk ha ha !! We all have dark days ~ and I am still not out of the tunnel yet ~ god alone knows what it is ~ I just think that I have reached a point where so much has been sorted ~ I ended a marriage that was destroying my very soul ~ got divorced, moved on ~ lost 6 stone in weight and found some of the 'OLD' me again........now that there is not so much important stuff to focus on and occupy me ~ there are other worries and problems that have reared their heads (no one said life was easy!!).
I think that all I need is time ~ just to get re focused on everything ~ I just need to relax and not panic and worry sooooo much ~ about EVERYTHING (yes, that is easier said than done!).....

Why is it that when you think that all your problems are over ~ a whole new set come along??
I suppose that life would be very boring otherwise!
Anyway ~ best get to bed ~ hope that you all have a wonderful weekend ahead of you.
I will be back tomorrow with some pictures of our new fishy friends......
Night Night XXX